I am a Lucky Girl!

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Today, a new day and I reflect on how far I have come in the last 11 weeks following my dream.
I am in the land of the unknown. Recently a widow with two beautiful children. Lucky to have been loved by the man of my dreams. I follow my heart and am brave enough to face the consequences of my choices.

Since my beloved's departure on March 23rd 2009, I know that love is worth risking on purpose for, even if in your wildest dreams it don't turn out the way you expected. Nothing ventured, nothing gained, nothing learnt and nothing felt.

My intention is now is to make the most of what I have. Not to focus on what's lost, what's missing and/or what's in pain. The fear is there but courage is not the absence of fear and the grieving is process is brutal for those who love deeply and with all their heart. It seeks to teach that there is more to life than this physical existence. Whatever brought us into existence in the first place transforms time and space to continue to exist. I feel this love with my whole being.

Pure Consciousness is loving the here and now. Accepting that the choices I made yesterday have determined to a large extent where I am today.

I have the free will to judge good or bad but that in itself is not going to get me anywhere.

Love. trust. security, joy....are qualitites of the soul...not the ego.
Happiness is always dependant on the external circumstances of the personality but I always have the choice to go within. To choose.

The soul accepts that life doesn't always go to the ego's plan. It accepts that often that biggest lessons are not what we choose but what we are given.

Every time I dig deep to choose my attitude and my focus... a new level of synchronicity elevates my perspective to ask where have I been? Darkness can't continue to exist where there is light and I can choose to shine my light whereever I choose, by choosing my perspective of this human existence.

Life is beautiful, nature is nature. Nature can be cruel to be kind and the 'x' factor only reflects my level of fear and doubt on the inside. I am a radiating magnet for core exposure.

I am life. May grace flow through me. I am the power of my soul. I can choose to live on the surface and pretend or I can be my authentic self, choosing to make the most of what I have, who I choose to stand beside and who I in turn reflect for being at any point in time.

My relationships enrich me, relect me and are the only aspects of humanity I take with me, when my physical time has passed.

My future is as bright as I intend it to be.
My intent is only to illuminate, inspire and shine.
Namsaste.